Ah, my part of the country. The weather is, characteristically, undefinable. A couple of days ago it was over sixty and sunny, and I wore shorts. Today, it is raining/snowing/icing, and I’ve slipped in it twice.
The only poor thing about this weather is the fact that I don’t want to move. I’ve already walked around in it a bunch, and it is MISERABLE. I would love to curl up in bed with a cup of cocoa, and, most likely, my Chekhov homework, with some good music, and RELAX.
Actually today would probably consist of getting my life together, regarding school/rehearsals/Valentines/life in general. That would be amazing. Most of the time I feel like if I had a little more time to get my affairs in order, I’d be a lot less stressed. The truth in that statement? Debatable.
Auditions are tricksy things. Sometimes I feel so nervous for them that I’d rather run out of the room screaming than go in there and perform (granted, this doesn’t happen very often, and usually occurs when I haven’t prepared appropriately. So…that’s my bad). And sometimes, I walk out of an audition feeling great about my career choice, my acting chops, and basically the world in general.
Last night I auditioned for a huge Shakespeare festival in Minnesota, and I had been a little nervous for it. Weekend auditions are always a bit weird, because you don’t spend the day performing like we usually do here in BFA land. You just kind of take a break in your day to get up there and do it. I performed two Shakespeare pieces: one of the Queen’s from King Henry the Sixth Part II, which is my go-to dramatic Shakespeare. It’s all about love and loss, and I basically just think about saying goodbye to The Boyfriend (aka Navy Boy), as we must do on a regular basis, and I’m emotionally there. The other was a new/old piece from As You Like It, one of Rosalind’s monologues as Ganymede. It’s old because I played Celia in that show, so I’ve heard the monologue 2.6 billion times…but new because, obviously, I wasn’t performing it. I had a ton of fun working on this monologue. It plays to my strengths: a little bit quirky, a little bit funny, with a large splash of love-lorn innocence thrown in. I love the Shakespeare women that are sweet on the surface, but have an inner core of steel–and Rosalind fits that description!
There was only one man in the audition room, which is a nice change from the huge panel of auditioners you usually perform for. I find it easier to connect and have a special moment with just one person; but that is far from the usual way of things, so I’ll need to get over it! He was the sweetest, most cordial person imaginable!
I went up and performed both monologues (verdict: missed a line in the new one, but still thought it was fun and landed well. And I performed the dramatic possibly the best I ever have). I was in the moment, which is one of the hardest things for me to find in an audition. Your nervous, your thoughts are flying everywhere, and you have so much to think about that finding the person you’re talking to and really delivering the monologue to them can be incredibly difficult. But i felt that here. I sang a snippet of If Only from The Little Mermaid the Musical (it’s a pretty song! No judgement!), and then Paul invited me to the table. This was my favorite part.
He told me about the program, the history of the festival, what internship members would be expected to do, and so on. And we discussed where I was from, what I loved about Shakespeare, and he complimented my performance.
It was amazing, and I went home with a very happy heart and a skinny decaf vanilla latte. Basically, I think what I need to have a great audition is a room that I feel cares about me and the work, and I need to connect to my pieces, and not worry about the other lesser details. It’s always going to be difficult to get this mix, but last night was a lovely example of how I want to audition.
Oof is the only word I can use to describe this week. I started feeling really sick yesterday…a weird combination of fever/achiness/light headedness/ fatigue that made me basically not want to move again. So I cancelled a voice lesson, took a two hour nap (that I slept like a rock for)…and still felt terrible. NOOO! Rehearsal last night was rough because of it, but I’m glad I went. I woke up this morning and almost missed class, but decided to drag myself out of bed, despite of the pounding sinuses and achey back.
This is the worst kind of illness to have at school. Because I am not, as these things go, that ill. Mostly, I am tired, achey, and crabby. So I’m just sick enough to want to curl up in a ball and sleep till Sunday, but not gross enough to be swayed from my most important activities. Which is basically all of them.
In addition to the sickness issue, this week has been full of homework, stressful assignments, and lots and lots of running around trying to get my life together. Which I am not exactly succeeding in at the moment.
College is really hard sometimes. I feel like I need about three more hours in each day to get everything done that needs to be done. And I am incapable of saying, “Okay, maybe I don’t have to do this thing right now, maybe it can wait.” Nope. It all has to be done RIGHT NOW! So I panic, and get caught up in the stress, and make myself sick with worry and fatigue (which is, I think, a major part of this little bout of whatever junk I have).
I am (hopefully) going to take this Friday and most of Saturday to 1) Organize my life a bit and 2) RELAX. Which is difficult when I feel like there are fifteen thousand and one other things I should be doing. But I shall make a valiant effort. Sometimes that’s all you can ask.
I am super stressed out at the moment. Trying to organize my spring break trip, make Valentine’s stuff, rehearse monologues for a big audition this weekend, and, oh, yes, school and rehearsals for Caesar…there just aren’t enough hours in the day! So I thought I’d make a list of the little tiny things that make me happier, calm me down, and help me get through rough weeks like this one. Just to remember that sometimes the best pleasures are the simplest.
1. Sweet, life-affirming texts from the Boyfriend (aka Navy Boy)
3. Dark Chocolate. I have one piece per day, and make it last for five minutes. Joy.
4. Inspiring Bible quotes that always seem to find me at the perfect time.
7. A walk outside on a beautiful path, with peaceful music in my ears.
8. Dressing up and looking nice. It takes more effort, but I feel better this way than I do when grungy.
9. Having a good, long, hilarious talk with friends here or at home.
If I could do that today, life would be set. As it is, I think I’m gonna have to eat my chocolate, concentrate on having fun with friends, and then really enjoy how lovely it will be to sink in bed late tonight with a good book.
What makes you feel better on the rough days?
This week has seemed long, and my weekend is chock full of theatre and fun. So no relaxing in the BFA world; but I’ll have plenty of time to sleep and read and watch more episodes of Pretty Little Liars when I’m out of college…right? No? Okay. Moving on.
Usually, I am not a big fan of this month. Up north, it is the fourth month of a frigid winter, the days are gray, and it is, overall, a bit depressing. But this year…this year I will be opening a show in February (Julius Caesar) which means it will be full of acting craziness and fun. My sorority, Alpha Phi, is also hosting Women’s Heart Health Week in the middle of the month (if you didn’t know, today is National Wear Red day, so if you’re not…go home and change, and support the fight against women’s heart disease!) One of my best friends at home has a very serious heart condition, so our philanthropy carries a very deep and special meaning for me. February is also the month of…
2) Valentine’s Day Prepping!
I realize it’s like two weeks away…but I love Valentine’s Day. I mean, really love it. And before you gag, no, it’s not because of the lovey-dovey, flowers and chocolate and overstuffed teddy bears thing. Though I do love all that. I’ve loved the day even when I didn’t have a significant other to celebrate with, because it is so full of an outpouring of love from everyone. I try to exude love everyday, because who knows who needs some? And on Valentine’s Day, I feel like some of it comes back to me.
This weekend I’ll be prepping The Boyfriend (aka Navy Boy’s) Valentine care package. I love baking and buying cool things for him…on a college kid budget. But it’s really fun, and he appreciates it so much! It’s the little things, y’all.
3) This pink post by College Prep
This awesome little style set comes to me by way of College Prep, one of my absolute favorite blogs. I certainly plan on injecting my February with dashes of pink…or maybe broad strokes is a better term.
4) Hanging with Dad
Dad and I are going to Barnes and Noble tomorrow. I don’t know if I’ve expanded enough on how much happiness that store gives me…but suffice it to say that it is hard to find a happier Lauren then one perched amongst a huge stack of books, latte in hand. Can’t wait.
5) Treasure Island!
One of my callbacks last semester was for our production of Treasure Island, and it was one of the most hilarious callbacks I have ever been a part of. I wasn’t cast, but I have loved every minute of hearing about their rehearsal process from my friends in the production! I’m ushering it tonight, and I can’t wait to see the culmination of all their hard work.
And finally, in honor of this special weekend…
6) Puppy Bowl Sunday
If you’ve never seen the magic that is the Animal Planet Puppy Bowl, I feel bad for you. Confession time: I have never watched a full super bowl game. But the puppy bowl? I could watch that for hours. Tune in this weekend if you have a break in your football-and-hot-wing induced coma, and you won’t be disappointed.
Happy weekend, all!